Ah, Christmas 2020. We're finally SOMEHOW here.
A week that I reluctantly dread, but also feel guilty about wanting to magically skip over entirely. I've spent years trying to come up with my own traditions to make the holidays less depressing, and while some ideas have brought me peace, I am still left feeling somewhat empty during this season of the year. It's the inevitable downward spiral once Halloween is over. Halloween is my Christmas. I THRIVE during Halloween (maybe it's because I'm so dead inside). Then there's Thanksgiving which is just an excuse to eat a shit ton of carbs and be lazy- and no, I'm not judging. And after Thanksgiving it's game time. My seasonal depression makes her grand entrance, and I'm left feeling blue for the rest of the year. Don't even get me started on New Year's. I always question my entire existence waiting for the ball to drop and promising myself I'm going to work harder in the new year, stop hating myself, and finally take that bag full of clothes to Goodwill even though it spent the entire year in my trunk. *Baby steps*
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During the dark days of quarantine, I saw a tweet and it’s stuck with me ever since. “Your summer body is the one that quarantined to flatten the curve, the one that fed a community, the one on the frontline, the one suddenly homeschooling, the one trying to make ends meet, the one that survived COVID. Your current body is worthy of sunshine. Your body is good.” - Christyna Johnson, MS, RDN, LDN WOW! This tweet caught my attention because it was warm and gentle and kind, and really should be the same tone I use when speaking to myself. We’re always our own worst critics, and sadly I know this mentality all too well. When friends confide in me or seek advice from me, I try my hardest to be kind in the delivery of my opinion but also staying true to my word. When I speak to myself? WHEW *insert winded Spongebob meme* How are you all doing?
This pandemic has stirred up so many different emotions for me, and I have to admit it’s been difficult to cope sometimes. Am I worried too much? Not enough? Should I be dooms-day prepping right now? The influx of news reports and Facebook threads of people from high school arguing are TEW MUCH. The other day I saw someone on Twitter talking about using this downtime wisely to start your business (aka Roc Nation Brunch twitter lmao), or begin that hobby we’ve been putting off. |
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